Little Fish

11th July 2010

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Never Stay Dancing On The Spot (was our choice already made when we came into this world?)

Was our choice already made when we came to this world? I can’t seem to find any answers; not to my questions, to the rain or to myself. We will always deny a truth that hurts, one we are scared of. We always want to be re-assured and so most will stay put in the security that they need.

I believe in the simple things in life, so often, we chase after the unimportant; each day things we have to achieve. The problems are that I must learn to distinguish the necessary from the true. Why not see and make use of our eyes?

Do we know what life is? What is the worth of bread? If we really knew who we were, we wouldn’t spend our lives counting money behind a desk. I have never lost sight of my dreams. All that is dream is the most solid of truths that I can think of. This is not so much a dream. All that can be expressed in words can be a part of life. I respect my faith and aspirations, and it is through these that I have chosen to live my life. In that, I recognise myself, I speak through. I am who I am. Or at least I am becoming myself. Slowly learning to be. I live in the present. I remind myself of my past. I anticipate the future. I am trying to know who it is that I am. When time is clear to me, when I scrunch my eyes, what else can I see?

Man believes what he sees, so give him eyes.

I will continue my road without giving up, letting go, release. I will follow my life, my leader. Each day, I learn flesh, my bone, unearth myself. I do what I love. What about morals? Be vigilant. By being too moral you can deprive yourself of beautiful things that life may bring. Aim further than morality. Don’t simply be good - but be good for something; for a reason. Know that you are alone in this world and do not count on companions.

Then there is the fear of asking myself if I am good or bad, whether my life is true or false. I simply cover my faults with shame and live with humour as whatever I chose to do, I must do with confidence, without waiting for more light but being careful that I have enough. To wait? Have I not waited long enough already?

Before it is too late and before I go, let me tell you this. Do all that you can to keep yourself standing in this world. At the heart of this labyrinth is our mind’s eye, its pupil, the black stone of our lives. Follow the things that you love and your vices will stay behind you. The stone of an astroid is nearly a star. The law of the land is for our feet and the law of the heavens is for our heads, so never stay dancing on the spot.

Was our choice already made when we came into this world?

Baffled & Beat

Juju: “I’ll sit by the window and watch the morning traffic. Dying is the easy part, it’s the living that’s hard”

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